Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Crazy
Saturday, December 5, 2009
So Now You Get It.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Ugh...
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Forgiven
Friday, October 16, 2009
Why?
Why do the things in our life change so frequently,
without our permission.
Why must everything be in the same order as everyone else.
Why must everyone judge a person because what they're doing or what they look like isn't what they'd define as "normal."
Why is everything the way it is.
Why are we here?
Why must everything appear so boring.
Why did I do the things I did.
Why am I doing them?
And why did this random blog appear out of nowhere when I logged on?
...
...
...Why?
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Frowning
And then you get that awful feeling in your stomache?
I am constantly feeling that now.
It could be just that I'm deprived of sleep and/or sugar.
Or is it because I have nothing.
Nothing to do.
Almost all my friends hate me.
I have nothing to look forward to.
All I have are these paranoid thoughts that something bad is going to happen. Something deadly. I realise it's just paranoia but I can't seem to shake them off. In this bored state that I am in I have nothing but to do but think. And when I think I think these thoughts and these thoughts I think make me think of thoughts of death.
Although it's not all bad. I still have a person I can rely on. And he makes all these thoughts that I think seem insignificant.
He is my hero,
my anti-drug,
my best friend,
my only friend,
my brother.
And at the moment he's all I care about. I don't want ANYTHING to happen to him and all I can care about is that he's happy.
I love you nii-sensei. ^:-:^