I'm Nothing But A Useless Emo.

Holidays

You're probably saying:
"Yes! Holidays at last!"
But are holidays really what they're cracked up to be?
People are given heaps of time for them to finally do what they want. But unless you find something new to do you will be bored out of your mind within approximately 4 days.
I myself am a victim of this as well and I'm not the best person to ask for help.

Holidays are highly overrated. Particularly 2 week long ones. Considering the average New Zealand term is about fifty days long, it ultimately outweighs the common end of term holidays which are fourteen days long, leaving thirty-six days left unrested.

Adding together the other three term holidays brings us to 42 days holiday but with 108 days left unrested. (42/108)

But if you add the end of year holidays we get 84/116 days rested. (32 days left)
The end of year holidays also include christmas making them more worth while, but still, even with the end of year holidays we are still somewhat cheated.

Hmmm....I don't think I intended on doing maths. Just goes to show how bored I am.

Subconscious Sadism

Do I have multiple personalities?
Do I secretly enjoy other's pain?
Am I insane enough to cause another harm even if it were to hurt me in the process?
The answer is yes.
Though I hate it to be true, I have thought about it and I do.
I am driving myself crazy.
How else could it explain my habit of laughing after hearing that someone had died?
Why else would I make a problem, get someone to help me and and turn it back onto them, ruining their life?
There is no other explanation, I am insane and I have no choice to accept it.
But then again, does it matter?
Everyone is insane, it's those who admit it does it make them different from the others.

My Nii-San.

Call me gay. Call me a freak. I really don't care.
I am happy as long as my brother is there.

He's the greatest guy I've ever met. Enough said, or is it?
There are limitless things to say about my brother. Many I can't explain.
He's the only person I share my troubles with, I could find another person to dump my worthless life on. Yet he insists he's okay.
Though I feel so close to him, he seems far away.
I wish I could help you nii-sensei, why must I trouble you?
I'm sorry nii-sensei. If only I cold sum up how much I care.
To repay the favours and the times you've been there.
In this life I've fallen into traps and known traitors.
So now you're all I can trust,
my first priority,
I'll see everyone else later.
I love you big brother, please don't go away.
I'd dedicate my life to you just so you would stay.
I'm sorry for annoying you.
Wasting the time in your day.
I'm just a lifeless zombie.
Feeding off other's dismay.
You're better than me,
in every single way.

You're pure awesomeness and I love you nii-sensei, I don't know quite how you took a liking to me.
For I do not deserve to know to know someone as awesome as you.
^:-:^

Blog is a funny word...Blog.

Ummm...is this thing on?

Hate me?
Despise me?
Envy me?
Wish to detest, attack or kill me?
Who doesn't?
Please forgive me for I know not what I do.
Think I've got in n for you?
Join the club, just as long as you know Im sorry.
If I could say it to your face I would, but even that may never help.
I've caused you pain and used for my own gain.
Pretended to help only to rub it in.
Every little thing that I have done please know that before i start this blog.

I am sorry.